meandering thoughts

i saw him once...twice...thrice and more after awhile
asked my number, checking if i am a by pass chatter
to his relief i am not
to my surprise, he is kind
a rarity online.




it became a routine
something i look forward to certain times of the day
apprehensions build
as i started to feel his presence in my everyday life.




is he true
are the stories kinder in reality
or fabricated ones
bleeding my heart.




he made me happy
i brought trust back to his life
or so he says
until when i don't know.




"next vacation, i will be with you"
his promise
suddenly i was numb
in my mind he is not serious with me.




friends that's what we are
he wanted more than that
i couldn't help but doubt




are good intentions possible
for someone who is deeply hurt
did he forget his love of 29 days
a marriage that ended so bitterly




what if...
there are more than one of us in his life
i can't live with that reality
so i better distance myself
reason i seldom talk nowadays.




the great unknown
that's what i'm afraid about
"can't you trust me more, please?"
his plea.




how can i?
why can't i?

cringe heart

i read sadness
i peeped into that cringing heart
no more lies, pretentions
today i can feel you from afar




what is it that brought this
frustration
fear
sorrow
pray tell my dear one




i am no seer
if you leave with that feeling
i may have failed you
i may have brought that sadness
oh pray tell.




(for someone who has been so lonely these past few days)

Welcome

hi everyone! welcome to my newest home. i hope to share what i can do better i guess - imagine. :)



honestly i talk to myself more so i find it unhealthy that i decided to write those words jammed in my brain and most of all in my heart. i write more with this organ as those of you know me by now.



i love poetry, short stories - i don't have the time to develop these into a novel. - t now, perhaps a couple decades before i retire. ha!



and excuse me for not using capital letters to start my sentence (don't lecture me on this).




feel free to leave a message, if you need to contact my by email, it's masai.kenya@gmail.com




again, WELCOME!